Today I received an email from a girl I went to high school with. We were nothing in high school. Not friends. Not associates. Not boyfriend and girlfriend. We weren’t teammates in some science project. We never sat at the same lunch table. We were nothing. I didn’t know her name but she knew mines. She was more familiar with me than I was of her, mostly, because of my taciturn. Sometime in 2012 we found each other via social media and became somewhat close. Talking on phone, hanging out, making plans together, etc. Then we fell out. I’m responsible. I’m Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. The friendship ended on a sour note. A few hours ago she emailed me. Guess what made her think about me enough for her to contact me? Some damn chips! Takis to be exact. I was very fond of them during our friendship and introduced them to her. I created a symbol that spoke in my absence. She saw some in the store and bought them. This made her think about me. She also wanted to remind me of our upcoming 10 year high school reunion. She had school pride. I never did. I shared this during several conversations.
My first reply to her was light and displayed my sense of humor, which suggested I welcome you back in my life. I could have been an asshole and held grudges, which I’m prone to do. My vision was for us to exchange numbers (I have since changed mines) and talk all night on the phone and set up a meeting. I also had to believe her reaching out to me just had to be about more than some damn chips and a funky reunion. Neither of which I care about. Later down the emails I expressed this to her. I’m looking for a “I miss you, I love you, I want you in my life.” As of writing, she has not expressed her true intentions other than the aforementioned subjects. You telling me you contacted me purely out of some damn chips and a funky high school?????
I will be writing an official post about this on my main blog.
I am very disappointed!